I looked up into Bill’s smiling face, and my heart skipped a beat. There was a buzzing in my ears. He took my hand and pulled me to my feet! He was still the best looking man I had ever seen. He was older and his face was pock marked from teen age acne. Funny, I had never really noticed. He had a lantern jaw that added to his looks. His eyes were the sexiest brown eyes I had ever gotten lost in. The only words to come out of my mouth were, “you made it back!” He laughed and said,”So did you!! I meant from Vietnam, and I’m pretty sure he was referring to Tennessee. There was a slow dance on. Thank God!! I melted into his arms and I knew that was where I belonged. I had never danced with Bill before, and we moved like we belonged together. I knew we belonged together. This was fate, or maybe God! I felt like I was in heaven. We sat the fast ones out. He said he there with some friends from work, so was I, so neither of us felt guilty when we ditched them and left and found an all night diner. we had coffee and talked all night. Bill knew the owner and so he didn’t mind how long we stayed. He told me about Vietnam and I told him about my failed marriage and the loss of my daughter. He moved his chair around the table and put his arms around me, wiped my tears away, and somehow it was all better.
Early morning Bill drove me home. I asked him to come up. He said “aren’t you tired?” I said no. He came up with me. I made some coffee and he came up behind me and put his arms around me and said, ” no more coffee, that’s not what I want.” He was nibbling my ear and I was melting. Coffee forgotten we moved to the bedroom. I had dreamed about this all my teen age years and yes when I was married to Neal. I was not disappointed. Good thing it was Sunday because we stayed in bed all day. Sunday night Bill left to go home.
Work for both of us the next morning. Bill left and when I walked back up the stairs I heard a lot of yelling. A woman was screetching at the top of her lungs, “Victoria you had better not throw that cat out the window!” Oh my gosh I turned and ran back down the stairs. This cat came down like a rock! I thought cats landed on their feet, well this one landed on me. I went down with a yowling cat on top of me! Holy crap!! The cat flew back up the stairs with me right behind it. She went straight to my door! I opened the door and in she went, under the bed! I tried to coax her out, but she would not come out! telling me to leave her alone. I didn’t even have a litter box. I was worried about this kitty. I knew that kid downstairs was a spoiled brat! I called in sick to work. Cough, cough! I took the bus to the big store that had everything. Bought litter, a box, some food, and slepped it all home. I snuck it in, just in case any one saw me. Looking out the window I saw Vicky out looking for her kitty. Probably going to throw her out the window again. Rotten brat! Oh yes, she was!!
Bill called and was very sympathetic. he said he would come over to help get her out from under the bed. Her name as it turned out was Agnes. I was waiting for Bill, and I sat down on the couch and there she was, the little kitty with the bright blue eyes. I knew she was a spirit cat, but didn’t really expect to hear from her again. She smiled at me and said she could get Agnes to come out. Great! Go for it! She told me her name was Magic and she was going to be a guide for me. Cool! A huge panther and and a tiny cat! It was very quiet under the bed, but after a few minutes Agnes came out slowly. She seemed embarrassed and when I looked at her I understood. Her upper lip was smashed back, she had missing teeth, and her ear was ragged. She looked like she had been kicked in the mouth more than once. My heart ached!
When Bill knocked on the door I was in tears. I explained the situation to him and I had to practically restrain him to keep him from going down stairs and kicking some butt. That is putting it nicely. Anu sat quietly, but told me that Agnes was my first rescue and there would be many more. Magic sat on Anu’s back. Anu growled at her, but magic just laughed. Bill asked me who I was talking to. I loved this man and hoped to keep him, so I decided to tell him the truth about me, to trust him. I was scared, but I sat down with him over a beer for him and soda for me. I told him everything, about Anu, magic, Chico, and talking to and understanding animals. He looked thoughtful. My heart was racing. He said, ” You are serious, this is not a joke?” I swore to him it was true! I would never lie to him. This man that I had lost and found again, this man that I loved and was afraid to lose again, he said to me these words, ” I always knew you were special, I never stopped thinking about you or loving you and I believe you.”
My heart slowed down and my head swam with relief. He said tomorrow when he was off work we would Agnes to the vet, and he didn’t leave until morning. We both went to work and I sang and my work went fast and before I knew it the day was over. Bill picked me up outside The girls I worked with did some good natured cat calling , “baby, baby, ooh leave her and come home with me!” “Fine man you got there, sure you know what to do with him?” Bill laughed and called back, “Oh yeah, she knows alright!!” Then he kissed me long and slow among whistles and laughter. My head was spinning!! Bill had called his sister Betty’s vet, and we stopped to pick up a cat carrier and then to pick up Agnes. The vet was very kind as he looked at Agnes’s mouth, he said he couldn’t fix her mouth, but could make her more comfortable.
The vet said he could pull some teeth and recommended spaying. Looked like she had already had a litter. I told him to go ahead and do what ever she needed. We would pick her up after work the following day. She was afraid. I held her and promised that she would be fine. I would be there to pick up and the vet would take good care of her.
I was anxious all day at work the next day and as soon as Bill pulled up, I jumped into the car and we were off to the vet. The nurse brought Agnes out to us in her carrier. she was groggy. I asked the nurse if I could arrange for a payment plan, but Bill gave her a check for the full amount. I told him I would pay him back, and he said we would work it out with a sexy grin. The nurse smiled! She sure did!
It was late when we got home and watching Bill take Agnes gently out of the carrier and cradle her in his arms, was a miracle to me. I never thought to ever see him again and here he was with my little cat in his arm
We made her a comfortable bed out of blankets on the floor in the bathroom with a litter box with newspapers. When Bill placed her gently on the blankets she woke up and started to cry. She said “oh please don’t send me back to her she will kill me.” I stroked her gently and reassured her that she would never have to live with Vicky again. She was my kitty now, and I would always take care of her. She drifted off to sleep and didn’t wake until morning, although she had nightmares that I discovered that I could see.
She was dreaming about the babies she bore in pain and sorrow. they died one after another as they were born, died before she could lick them clean. I tasted her tears as they were taken away and disposed of, all 6 of them. I watched as a beautiful grey tabby cat came and picked them up gently and crossed over to the land of spirit. I vowed to her that nothing would ever hurt her again. Bill rocked me gently in his arms kissing away my tears.
I fed Agnes as much as she could eat. Ate like she was starved. She became comfortable around me and Bill. Bill picked me up every day after work, we came back to my apartment and cooked dinner together. Agnes never went near the window. She grew plump and happy. On Friday nights Bill and I went to the movies, on Saturday night we went to the clubs dancing. Sundays we spent with his mom and dad.
I was happier than I had ever been in my life. I didn’t remember being happy until then. One Sunday Bill’s mom took him into the bedroom to talk to him. He took me home and said he had to do something and he would call me. Call me? We had been practically living together. Oh no, this couldn’t be good. He wouldn’t tell me what was wrong, but he looked angry.
I went upstairs and cried all night. That’s right I was a crying fool! Anu, magic, and Agnes all slept with me that night, except that I didn’t sleep.
Life isn’t fair.